Who the Hell is Ali?

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Who is Ali?

Or better yet, who are we?

Ali said that Ali is not who I think she is. So it's just like she said that she is not Ali. Wait. That sounds confusing. Well if you think about it, it's not that hard.

I've heard that we could partition our personality. Could we really? What's the point? Anyway, one said that who we show can be different than who we hide inside. That's partly true, I think.

I do not make any sense. Let me start from the beginning...

Ali was once a detached person. She never really joined me and Cute during one of those laughing fits we had in the middle of Java lessons. Cute once asked Ali why she doesn't join us. Ali just said that it wasn't in her nature. To do exactly what, I don't know.

This Ali always wanted to change who she is. She never really liked her old self because she was not quite nice before. This is according to her. I liked her. I never really cared if she wanted the change. Well, that's for her to decide. I'll just support her in any way that I can. That's what friends are for, right?

After a few years, she really did start to change. Many people noticed. She even exclaimed once that she was happy because she achieved what she has longed for. Naturally, I was happy for her. She just didn't know.

Finally, the changes she'd made has taken a toll on people. It wasn't really natural. It was like she was forcing herself. I know that if she reads this, she'll kill me. But if she knows how I feel about her, then maybe that would ease things up.

These past few months, things became out of control. One of her best friends, Cute, wasn't talking to her anymore. I really don't understand the reason behind this, but that's for them to work out. She became a different person. A lot has changed. She's not the friend I once loved for who she is. Am I still going to like her? What kind of a question is this. Of course I should! But what she is doing is hurting a lot of people around her, including me.

Including Cute.

Since she and cute aren't talking to each other anymore, she found a new friend to keep at her side. Let's call her Newbie. Anyway, she and Newbie were always together. The seat beside Ali, where Cute once sat, is now filled by Newbie. What was worse was that she and Newbie were doing the same stuff I was doing with Cute. This really hurt Cute a lot. Is this one of the side effects of the change she really wanted?

I tried to patch things up between Ali and Cute, but somehow it just doesn't happen. Talk about weird. I tried to talk with Ali. She said she was open to anything. She said that who she really is is just kept inside her, and that part of her is different from the Ali that we see everyday. Isn't so hard to maintain two different personas?

Ali said that she wanted to help Cute. This got Cute in a fit? She didn't need any help! It was Ali who needed serious straightening out. The things I say!

Who really is Ali? The one inside or the one we see?

If you're reading this Ali, I'd like to have a long talk with you. Snatch me or something. I'm mighty scared of you biting my head off. Anyway, I'm open too. I don't want to take any sides. So what's yours?