no more shifts. nakakatamad.

okay. so malamig ngayon. dahil aircon at ako ay naka flip-flops (go phospholipid bilayer) at shorts lamang. ang lame ko. grr.

merry christmas everyone! although late na, let's try to make the holidays work. gosh, i hate chem.

finally, napuntahan ko na rin ang magkabilang dulo ng linya ng mrt. yey me!

ang bobo talaga ng IE. grr. kasi naman po, i was trying to download grey's 3x09, pero i keep getting dc-ed. so i have to find the stupid link all over again just to start downloading. buti pa yung firefox, mei 'retry.' grr talaga.

i only opened one gift this christmas (huhu). not including the ones i got from imed pips. pero kasi, my dad gave me an early present. he still wrapped it kahit na alam ko naman yung laman. so ano nga yung gift na yun? 300 gig external hard drive. wee! the best...

tapos ko na yung time traveler's wife. at super natuwa ako sa kanya. kahit na ilang beses akong naluha. *sniff sniff* thanks nikka talaga.

di ko nadala yung pramoedya ananta toer ko! i guess i'm stuck with the grr-some PS from beloved robi. heinaku. sana naman ma-feel niya na hate ko na siya. yuck.

classmates, get ready for a fatter me for the new year. nyahahahahahaha. joke lang. di naman ako siguro lumobo ng todo...

In a good way, of course. I woke up and dashed to UPD to meet friends. Syempre, watch na rin ng oblation run. Pero kasi andaming tao. So senseless din yun. Kasi naman nasa AS steps kami. Haha.

Ang fun/lagkit/uncomfortable kumain sa sunken garden. Na naka-upo pa talaga sa grass. feeling picnic daw. Pero sobrang hirap. Tas sa slope pa kami nakahilata. Haha. And these kids were bothering us kasi naman gusto nilang makuha yung mga cans/PET bottles namin. Anyway.

Napagod ako ngayon. Siguro dahil sa kakahanap ng maireregalo sa mga tao sa bahay. Haha. Two more to go! Fun ba ang mag-Christmas shopping? Uhm, ewan. Kasi naman andaming tao ang makakabangga mo. Tas super haba ng pila. Tas halos paubos na yung mga stock ng gusto mong bilhin. Pero ok na rin. I guess it comes with the season.

This will probably be my last post for 2006. For the next two weeks, ako ay magbabye-bye muna sa mundo. Ako ay uuwi sa amin! Haha. Parang ang big deal, noh? Big deal naman talaga eh. For me, anyway.

I hate packing. It's so stupid. I wish I could just carry everything with me. Haha. Imagine that. It would look like trash. Anyway. I really do feel that I have packing issues. I never travel light. Kasi naman lagi kong nafi-feel na may naiwan ako. Or something. So I always end up bring stuff that I bever use. At laging mabigat ang bag ko. Sana di naman mag-overweight. Haha. Now I don't have a bag with the wheels on the bottom. I stuffed my things in a great duffel bag and the only means of transporting it from point A to point B is by carrying it. I can't handle it with only an arm, so it has to go across my shoulders. I just hope my back doesn't snap like a twig during summer when I carry my "closet." Please?

Andami ko pa sanang gustong sabihin. Kaso lang sa sobrang pagod parang nawala bigla sa utak ko yung mga witty things that I was supposed to say here. Duh, Patrick. Haha.

I will miss you as I will miss the hard surface of cold concrete that supports my soul as I lay in slumber. I shall call you mine albeit secretly. And I shall smile only for you. You and you and you.

We saw a beggar begging with a Starbucks cup. Hmmm...

Sarap. Haha. So I just got back from treating Nil to a Java Chip. Masaya siya. So masaya na rin ako. Merry Christmas sa kanya. Haha.

This day is uber tiring. Kanina nung parade paikot-ikot kami sa buong campus. Tas may parts pa na naglakad kami sa Taft Avenue! Screaming at the top of our lungs, with balloong animals on our heads, and pausing every so ofter to say cheese to Mr. Canon. Yes naman. Sikat ang iMed. But what I hate was when the rallyistas were stealing the scene, singing the no-to-TFI anthem. Or the "Iskolar ng bayan..." rally chant. I mean, let it rest! Even just for the sake of the season. Diba diba diba?

We really have to clear up the class cheer. Who says the first part, when it is the proper time to say it, and all that jazz. Kasi naman minsan andaming taong nag-iinitiate ng cheer so sino susundin? Tapos minsan totally out of place pa yung pag-cheer. Diba diba diba?

I should really stop Starbucksing everyday. I'm poor!

Sana mangyari na. Wee!

Sa kabilang dako naman. Sana ganito na lang lagi. Walang pagbabago. Okay na yung kung anong meron ako (sa tingin ko lang ha).

Ang emo ko lately. Yuck ang emo. Never mind.

Sa mga nagbigay sa akin ng stuff for Christmas (a.k.a. gifts), salamat. Sa mga hindi pa nakakabigay, pwede pang humabol Kahit sa January na lang. Sa mga walang balak, masunog kayo sa impyerno! Bwahahahahaha! Joke lang po.

Sana makapiling kita kahit minsan sa ilalim ng liwanang ng buwan. Pero kung New Moon, okay na sa akin yung sa ilalim ng ulan. Pero sana malinis yung ulan. Pero kung summer naman, sige sunset. Pero kung ayaw talaga, kape na lang at cinammon. Pero kung walang available, sige lakad lakad na lang. Siguro naman marunong o kaya mong maglakad, no? Pero kung wala, feeling ko nasa deathbed mo na ako. At yun. Ipinagdadasal yung kaluluwa mong hindi nagbigay ng regalo sa akin para sa paskong ito. Nyahahahaha!

You shall have me.
But you will never be mine.
Just a thing to covet.
Something to hate.
Something to look forward to.
I hate your guts.
I love your smile.
My feet hurt, you tap my shoulder.
And give me something to smile about.
For days.
For ever.

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OMG Nikka. You are as of the moment my most favorite person. In more ways than one. Haha. Yuck ang babaw ko...

Kasi ganito yun. I asked my "bunoter" to give me a long letter. Ang give she did! It was long. It's not the kind that Crisostomo Ibarra would give his Maria Clara. It was long dahil andun yung stuff na nangyari nung first kaming nagkita (at hindi ko alam yung name niya, I suck!), tas long dahil it was written on a long strip of paper. More than a meter long. Haha. Tapos may clue dun about sa gift niya. Tas nahulaan ko. Tas freak out! Freak ba ako? Haha. I guess. So yun. As in haaaaaaaaaaaaappy!

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Walang akong tinulong sa pag-decorate ng MSU. Boo me.

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Last hurdle na lang: Kem Lec (+he). Bakit naman kasi di siya pumunta nung Monday?! Nalulusaw daw kasi siya sa ulan. Delikado na toh!

Shucks. May Bio Lecture Guide pa pala. Grr.

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Hay naku. I still haven't finished buying stuff for the people at home. Ask lang. Bakit ang hirap bigyan ng gifts ang mga tatay?! Ang hirap talaga. Like, what can I give him that he can't get by himself? Shucks talaga. At mauubusan na ako ng pera. Sige lang. Basta naay mahatag.

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I am out of blog topics. Grr.

People, I am coming clean. For Christmas, I have not bought anything for anyone. As in nada. Kasi nga... Andami kong trip to Starbucks for the planner (which I got today, hurrah), and I totally didn't save up for the season's most expensive activity. So if you're planning to give me anything (feeler na ako kung feeler), don't expect something in return. Oh diba. I'm giving everyone to practice the maxim "It's better to give than to receive" by always being there to receive your gifts. Pero ako nga, I'm forsaking myself by merely receiving them! Eternal damnation na ito. Pero napakadakila ko, diba?

Yuck ang lame ko.

So uwi ulit ako sa Saturday. Wee!

I will miss you. Period.

Oh no.

Wait lang. I-practice ko kaya ang pagsasalita (typing actually) sa Tagalong nang sa gayon ay maging matatas naman ako sa paggamit ng sariling wika. At para ma-ensayo ko na rin ang aking sarili sa paghahanap ng mga malalalim at mabulaklaking mga salita para sa talumpating handa at di handa para sa asignaturang Komunikasyon III sa panuro ni Ginang Carol. Pulumbarit.

On second thought, 'wag na. Ang pangit pakinggan. O basahin. Whatever.

Basta. Hey. As of now, isa na lang ang kailangan kong sticker for that Starbucks Limited Edition Planner. Hala. Ano kaya yung last drink ko before ko makuha yung thing na uber mahal at sobrang ewan? Haha. Ang babaw ko naman. Sumasakit na nga lalamunan ko sa kakainom ng frap. At hindi pa ako nadadala. Hay naku. Ang baboy ko talaga.

At dahil sa katakawan ko sa kapeng mahal, malamang ay wala akong maibibigay na mga regalo sa mga tao ngayon. Maliban na lang siguro sa pamilya ko na matagal ko nang hindi nakikita. Hala. Napakamakasarili ko naman. Pero ewan. I'm poor kasi. At feeling ko sa past life ko serf ako. Ang depressing diba?

Pero Christmas at dapat maging masaya. Gusto kong makumpleto yung simbang gabi. Super fun! Yey. Kakanin at hot choco. Haha. Tas pag-uwi sa bahay Late Night with Conan O'Brien agad. Haha. Ewan.

Kanina, when I was talking about Christmas and gifts and family, at kasama ko si Joanne sa MSU, medyo naiyak ako. Hala, ang crybaby. Pero siguro pag di ko masyadong pinigilan, maiiyak talaga ako. May tendency kasi akong maging cryaholic. Gosh. I'm sooooo lame. Iyaking lampa. Yuck. I gross myself out. Yuck talaga. Haha.

Ang saya maging "single." Basta. Ewan ko lang. Kasi naman. Would I like the Dream Girl or the Best Friend? Feeling ko I'd settle for someone who could tolerate me na lang. Haha. Ewan. Andaming "ewan," "hala," at "haha" sa post na 'to. Na-feel ko lang.

Uuwi na ako sa Saturday. Wee!

Wala na yung super-nice-pero-hindi-ko-naman-ever-bibilhin na pants sa PRP. Anyway.

Ang tagal ko nang di nagpo-post. Feeling ko lang. Haha.

Sana matapos na lahat na gagawin ko. Tapusin ko na kaya. Tama na blog, Patrick. Oki?

you'd just die. so I wouldn't be dying right now.

Too much cold to drink, I guess. Stupid blended coffee.

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Cheesums:

Wag na nga lang. Ikukwento ko na lang. Kasi kasi kasi. Internet to eh. Haha. Feeler.

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I will be the bigger person. The better person. Damn, kung di lang... But. Andyan na. Oh well.

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I shall recite at tomorrow's HUM class and I shall pass my KOM quiz with flying colors. And that entails schedule toxicity. I-eenjoy ko na lang. Kasi naman. Wala ring magagawa. So I will do this!

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I hate you and everybody (save for a blessed few) does, too. Kasi naman. Gr. How do we proceed? Do we just get used to the whole idea of you? Or is there another way?

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NSTP is...er...basta. Nakakainis. Wala na naman akong nagawang Med-related stuff. Tas nakaharang pa kami sa daan kanina. Tas sobrang lamig na rin sa GIC. Anyway, at least I got to cut through more than a ream of paper. Yes. Ang galeeeeng ko na mag-cut!!! Blech.

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PAROL: isa-isip at isa-diwa.

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Many stickers to go! Congrats, Panget. Haha.

Just stop for a while. Please. Or is there nothing? Stop. But why do I want this? It's even impossible. Sh*t. Might as weel give up, right? Yeah, right.

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TRP. Recycle Bin. Next year? Hmmm.

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I feel disappointed. In me, really. I feel like...a stale brownie. Wha? Haha. I don't think I make sense here. Why is it that when I do ordinary things I come up with crazy but really (trust me) interesting ideas. But when my ISP doesn't fail me and I type type type away, I get stuck. Piss off.

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Why is it that I can't? I want to. I feel I do. But I can't. I can. I want to. But I can't. And nothing good will come out of it. I'll just end up where I started. Or even way back. But I can't. I do. But I can't. But I'm at least happy. Two things. One, you do. Two, there's actually a clear direction.

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The star is the sponge. But the sponge is left out. Stored under the sink until it is needed. Again. But the star still shines. And it will until all the hydrogen fuel is all used up. Supernova? No. Blackhole. Yuck.

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I miss my friends. I want to go home. And I feel tired. But your face is tattooed on my eyelids. The inner part. It doesn't matter if there's no light to reflect the image for my brain to be able to see you. I know it's there so it's there.

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Why is it that I can't do this? Everytime this happens, everything goes wrong. But if only a small part is altered, which is actually a big part, then everything is right again. In an unwelcome and wrong way. I want it to be right and right, but it just can't. For ever. Until. But then, I know it's for ever. Even if something changes. It will still.

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What is the noun form of evil? If you are the best evil person, does it mean that you are the good-est evil or the evil-est evil? Eenie, Minnie, Whinnie the Pohgers.

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So. Bagyo raw. At dapat malakas ang ulan dito sa Metro Manila. Pero di pa naman umuulan sa Malate. Hay naku. Party here, party there, but no rain.

I have decided. I want that Starbucks Planner, too. Ha! Okay, andami ko pang bibilhing kape. Kamusta naman ako nito after, diba? So kung sinong gustong mag-Starbucks out there na hindi interesado sa planner, akin na lang sticker mo. Please? Haha.

I'm stuck in the dorm. I can go out, but I just don't feel the need to. Hay naku. Yesterday I went to our home-mall (Rob) at may sale. Bagyo raw pero andaming tao at may sale. Yes naman. Go Pinoy. Tinake-advantage ba naman ang isang natural calamity para makapag-liwaliw?! Haha. So yun. Masikip at puro "excuse me, excuse me" ang nasabi ko. Gah!

I miss waking up to a healthy breakfast. You know, the one that you don't get to prepare? The one that you eat without too much fuss. Yes. Go bulalo-flavored cup noodles. Sustain me! That and coffee. Yuck.