Haha. I just wanted to tell the whole world about my topsy turvy week, but I got so tired recalling all those dreadful stuff.

All I can say is that when you have something to remind you of why you are sticking your head in crap, your soul smiles and you do the best you can. And you can get this by watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. *sigh*

And there's nothing like shaving-slash-cutting-slash-experimenting with your hair to cope up with shampoo and conditioner demands. :D You do this after accomplishing such a good job on one half of an exam you thought you could never pass. Top this off with a good Dance Maniax session after being dormant for a while and some Heroes, and you're good to go.

And of course there always that someone. ♥


Because my YM sucks and I sooooooo wanted to show it off. :D

Lord make me the most productive person in the world this week. *sigh-slash-tear-slash-yawn*

What do you do when you are left alone in your room while your roomies flock to their gurls and their orgs and their jobs?

k. You mourn the loss of the author of the series you're reading because he died and he didn't finish writing the story.
z. You read the series anyway.
o. You hug your Reese's, Stik-o, and Bread Pan while crying over Bruice.
q. Stare at space.
m. Go to sleep.
t. All of the above.

Tough choice.

To Ms. Cybill Dianne C. Uy, happy happy birthday!

(I suck at making wishes but I shall try.)

I wish you food so that you may share it with me (haha).
And I wish you love so that you may make Daniel happy.
I wish you a full life so that you may heal others.

Kidding. Anyway, yes we have known each other for a short-ish time but I always feel comfortable whenever your small-MUAC-ed frame is around (even though you really look mean, peace!). Haha. Thank you for sharing your condo to the iMed family whenever we have a class project coming up (especially when you are rendered temporarily homeless when you do open your "home").

Gob bless at halong pirmi (you have to ask me for the meaning of this phrase). Oooooh. I also wish that you be blessed with what you wish for. :D

So HABURDEI and enjoy your day. Eeek. Legal people are piling up! HAHA. *hug*

♥ Pat

P.S. Andami kong ninakaw na mga pics from your Multiply + Friendster accounts. *teehee*

Eating out of a big black box minutes before the place closes down for the day has its perks. You can pick any seat, and you get your refills very quickly! The thing is, most of the staff members stare at you while you're stuffing bean sprouts down your throat. Nevertheless, it was fun.

As fun as commuting at night! Haha Trinoma trips in two successive nights! All for a pair of green rubber goodies. :D

***

Yes we shatter when something ends. But all there is to do is to pick up the pieces and put yourself back together. And brace yourself for the next impact. Or hope to pick up where you left off. Whichever the case is, we have to dream for something better. Not to be disappointed when we don't get what we want, but to keep ourselves alive. To keep up from withering from the inside.

If we look hard enough. There's always something that will keep us going on. That's why we have to clean up after a mess--for our view not to be occluded.

I loved you. I love you still. And I will always. But the thing we have eats us up instead of building us up to something greater, instead of preparing us for a good future. So I have to let go. And I hope that in time you'll learn, too. For your sake. For ours.

I don't put much stock in online tests but...




I don't believe in playlists. I just don't. So unless I want to hear the whole of a newly downloaded album (especially if it's from a musical), Cheesecake is always in shuffle.

But damm*t, the random magic of shuffling doesn't seem to work lately. Cheesecake is due for a sever talking-to.

***

So life has been pretty hard lately. To wake up at wee hours of the morning and stay up for the most part of the day PLUS night really isn't agreeing with my body right now. I desperately need a vacation from all of this.

I should be studying for a quiz right now, but I had to have a break.

We had the Soc Sci 2 midterms today and during the exam my writing hand (and brain) was screaming in protest. We were asked to answer at least 2 out of 4 essay questions with not less than 20 sentences each! And be concise while going about it? How do I manage to do both.... And we're trained to answer questions in the briefest (but complete!) way possible. Not to beat around the [mulberry!] bush but to be direct. So during the exam I have practiced the art of rewording sentences again and again, just to extend my answer. Oh well. That's that for the midterms.

***

Hell Weeks do not exist. Again, why specifically point out specific weeks when you actually feel this chronic pain due to excessive demands of life?

And it can be so stressful to discuss Stress. Especially when the one discussing it is stressed and stressful at the same time.

***

Ooh. Kate Bosworth decides to die! So how heavy will that movie be? And what about that masturbating thing in front of that catatonic guy?

***

Somehow I always loved the idea of you ever since that stupid day when (expletives). But I know that I'm hanging by tendrils here since you don't care the slightest bit. You're not even aware. Not that I'm actually doing anything.

And I've always loved the thing that you have-slash-do that makes other people hate you. I think it's very endearing. But again I (am not doing/won't do anything) about it.

Sigh.

***

Darn it that NMAT is friggin' expensive. I could buy lots with that money....



Finally, I have a Saturday all to myself.

But it's so easy to get pissed when somehow, people you expect to be half-decent and all proper doesn't even come close to that bar. Waking up to nothing has never felt more stupid, really.

EDIT: But they actually are! Not just to you, that is. Sh*t sh*t sh*t.

EDIT EDIT: There's a new generation of iPods and the Nano looks ridiculously... erm... cute? Now my own is obsolete. Le sigh.

200th post ko yung pag-try ng HTML na ♥? Ang lame-o naman.

I am a talkative person.

I am a very talkative person.

So gusto ko ng very functional love life.

Wait lang. Kung nagbabasa ka ng blog ko at minamadali mo lang dahil may kailangan ka pang gawin (e.g. magbasa ng Hyman, mag-upload ng files sa Y! Groups, mag-basa ng gossip sites, matulog, kumain, mag-YM), malalabuan-ish ka sa sinabi ko. Pero kung mahal mo ako at nanamnamin mo ang mga sinabi ko, mapagpapasiyahan mong may kabuluhan nga ang aking pahayag (okay ang haba ng intro).

Sabi ng ni Lara. Basta may sinabi siya. Tapos kung alam mo yun, gets mo.

Gusto ko ng may makausap araw-araw. Hindi yung mga mabababaw na topics lang yung pag-uusapan gaya ng mga cravings ko. Paguusapan namin ang Digital Disparity ng mga Mamamayang Pilipino. Idedekonstrak namin ang Orapronobis (Sa Moviola ba ito?). Paguusapan namin kung ano ang mas makabuluhan kung ikaw ay may iniibig na: Changing for the Better or Being Who You Really are and Being Loved Despite of Your Imperfections. Gusto ko ng may nangagamusta sa akin. Gusto kong may ngumiti sa tabi ko habang isinusumpa ko ang OrgChem. Gusto ko ng may magbibigay sa akin ng pagkain kung ayaw/hindi maubos/gusto niya lang akong pakainin. Gusto ko ng may mapagkukwentuhan kahit hindi ko kailangan makinig sa kwento niya (pero makikinig pa rin ako kasi "mahal" [theoretically] ko siya diba). Gusto ko ng may magtetext sa akin ng 12:01 sa birthday ko. Gusto ko ng ka-picture kung kinukunan na yung mga couples sa isang party kunyari.

Pero hangga't hindi ka pa dumarating kung sino ka man, magbabasa na lang muna ako ng Electrophilic Addition of Alkenes at Tongue and Pharynx of Mammals (dumating ka na dali! ayoko basahin 'to!)

That Chem exam (+ preparations AND Bio lab make up class) really took a toll on me. By the time I arrived home I was feeling like heck is creeping up on me. So I slept. And woke up 5 hours later.