I want to write a lot right now. I just hope I stay awake long enough to do this. *inhales*

Okay! So I'm so happy right now. For a lot of reasons. (1) I was able to watch a movie. Yes, I watched 300 even though all the cells of my body were screaming for sleep. And regret I did not (yuck Yoda). Even though I watched half of the movie with a throbbing head (my head throbs a lot lately, notice?) and numb feet (never wear flipflops to movies), I still managed to finish the long thing. I was first amazed by how they made the movie that long! When I read the graphic I was thinking, "How disappointing will the movie be? This story is so short." But no! They had to bring in a lot of slow-mo. Which I liked a lot. The battle scenes were so brutal. And gory. But then again, they executed the whole thing with such dignified grace it seemed like a dance. I can now totally imagine Feur Grissa Ost Drauka doing the dance with death. And then there was this other scene where Leonidas et al was consulting the oracle. The oracle was a beautiful girl who wore this gossamer dress. And when she was having these "visions," she moved such that her body was making all these impossible angles and she was flapping the dress around! And everything was in slow-mo. That was so amazing. I'm a dance person so I really find these things fascinating.

(2) We went to interview Acd. Conrado Dayrit (Manuel Dayrit's father) today. It was great, picking his brain. Or mind. Imagine to a fully functional 87-year-old. I don't know about the rest of my Kom group but I was so blown away. The best thing he said was about positions and power. "It's not the position that's important. It's the power to effect change that comes with it." Not exact words, mind you. But said in the same light, nevertheless. One Kom requirement partially down!

(3) I'm to deliver my Talumpating Handa on the 22nd! Yes! Time to prepare! Cedes is like the bestest blockhead for The Cult 13.

(4) I went to church at 8 o'clock. And went home an hour after. Then JF greeted me with 2 very cute, green scrubs! Okay, they were just the tops, but I have no use for the pants anyway. Shall I wear them to school one day? Haha. Love it love it.

(5) I'm craving a lot of things lately. Tonight I craved for Flat Tops. Do you know those chocolates all covered in pastic foil and orange wrappers? Yes, I wanted those. A lot. And I was just airing out all these cravings when suddenly JF went out. Guess what? To get me 5 of those. Awww. I have the best roommates ever. The chocolates made me giddy. So I Have a perfect reason not to resort to drugs nor to cigarettes nor to alcohol nor to sex nor to whatever there is left.

Happiness is very attainable. That is if we choose to walk the few steps that brings us to the nearest corner. The thing is, you don't mind those few steps when you're with someone. I am so not making sense here. Oh, you get the point.

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Last week I realized 2 things. Or maybe three. Or 4. Who cares?

(1) I have not yet mastered the art of smiley-drawing.

(2) Good looks must have a high price. I mean, you have to be generally nice or at least accommodating. If you are otherwise, you get crap from other people. It's nice that I don't have to put up with this. I just have a great personality. Haha!!!

(3) High school is sooooo 5 minutes (or a few months) ago. It's amazing how people mature under stress. And petty fights remain that. A few stupid words said. A "sorry" there. A bit of a smile and voila! Peace. I remember not talking for months to particular people just because of their misplaced oversensitivity. My gosh, how immature! Imagine all the energy spent...


(4) I whine a lot. About life in general. Or the lack of it. I keep on complaining about how I don't get to enjoy the big world just because all of my days are eaten up by schoolwork. And how do I get myself free from work when I become a doctor? Life=kaput. My world is getting smaller and smaller and the only times I can sense it is if I stop and really think about it. My life is getting more limited!

But then again, I chose this life. I've wanted this ever since, for as long as I can remember. This is the whole of my life. This is what makes me whole. What will make me whole. I just have to put up with this stupid crap for a while, then comes the whole-ness.

So all these tests littered along the way are just...well, litter. I just have to discipline myslef. So I'll stop whining. Bring it on!