I want to party.

This is the nth time that I've tried to write this entry. And somehow I get the sinking feeling that this will suck...

I studied the whole day today. If the Physics exam were scheduled earlier, I could've been over the damn thing earlier too. Then that would leave most of the day free for me to study for Bio. I still haven't read a thing about muscles since the last dissection (the two "storm" days were spent memorizing parts of the skeletal system which I now can't recall for the life of me). And I can't help but think about my Chem exam result. I never thought that I could be this depressed. I keep on thinking that it's never gonna get to me since I don't really care about Chem exam results. But I've been so down lately and Chem is one of those reasons I keep pointing to even if I know that that's not the only thing that's making me so friggin' sad.

So what part of my present life does not suck? I can't think of anything.

I never thought of parties as being stressful gatherings. Well I was wrong. Period.

I wish I could just throw a tantrum and get it over with. Or just break down and cry in an obscure corner. But I'm not that kind of person. I need someone to talk to. I need a deep conversation...

I don't want any class after PE. It's inconvenient and it's gross. But most of the class just wants to get home early. Or some cramming time before Bio Lab. Why not study before that day? I know most people do. And 3 solid hours of STS. Eff.

Some people can be sooooo hard to get along with. Sure they're jolly and all that crap, but they're so manipulative that all you can do is laugh and pray for their souls to go to Heck.

I am beat. And I'm still holding my breath, hoping that the Bio Lec exam will be moved to Thursday. I think I'd rather die of asphyxiation than take that exam. Sigh.

I love you but all I can do is let go, for my sake.

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