It just dawned on me that I may never see my mother for the next months or so. :( How am I going to tide all these things over?

And I really need some ind of back-up system. I wish I could just whip one up, but sadly, it has to come out of a womb. Come now, dammit. I need you N-O-W! Please? Before I cookie-crumble in a dark corner of our cluttered apartment. :(

Nothing feels more sh*tty than being physically, socially, and mentally drained. I wish crying could just finish the job, but there's a lot of things to attend to, and they have this awdul tendency to file up in this fugly conglomerate of sh*tty-ness. Ugh. Seriously, if never knew that slitting wrists were so futile, I'd slash someone's right now.

Wooh. I never knew I was so angry til I started typing. And it hasn't abated yet, no.

There's only one saving grace this day, and that's seeing a bit of Sunshine. Sadly, this one isn't the right one, though. Come N-O-W!