Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Naturally
I love how you make me feel so important. And I love how I can come to you with the most trivial of things and not feel like an idiot. So does that mean you're more best friend material, other than something else? Regardless, something beautiful came my way tonight (from "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky):
"You know I blamed Craig for not letting me do things? You know how stupid I feel about that now? Maybe he didn't really encourage me to do things, but he didn't prevent me from doing them either. But after a while, I didn't do things because I didn't want him to think different about me. But the thing is, I wasn't being honest. So, why would I care whether or not he loved me when he didn't really even know me?" (Sam to Charlie)
And Charlie's narration:
But the best part was the scene with Janet where we had to touch each other. It wasn't the best part because I got to touch Sam and have her touch me. It's the exact opposite. I know that sounds dumb, but it's true. Just before the scene, I thought about Sam, and I thought that if I touched her in that way on stage and meant it, it would be cheap. And as much as I think I might want to someday touch her like that, I never want it to be cheap. I don't want it to be Rocky and Janet. I want it to be Sam and I. And I want her to mean it back. So, we just played.